Idiotic!!

Indeed. What's past is past... and cannot be undone. We can only look back in retrospect and we cannot continually linger upon something that we 'hope against hope' would perhaps change its course and make a difference in the present.

Now... that makes me think. Hmmm.

Looking back at a recent past, I get the shivers. No. Not shivers. It's more of disgust. Poignantly distasteful. How could I have been so blind (would STUPID be a more appropriate term, you think?) as to allow myself to step down from the already low morale that I am sunk in? Ah. But it's the nature of the beast. The very essence by which that repulsion exists is what made it more desiring... more appealing to the common faculties.

Didn't God tell Adam and Eve that they could have anything they could ever want, as long as they leave the damn apple alone? But No! Succumbing to temptation is more gratifying than everything else. Is this not proof enough that, by nature, one wants to get what one can't have?

And they'd do anything to achieve that - up to the extent of going beyond what is morally right - or even more beyond than beyond.. the extreme, as in selling the soul to the devil. (Now.... ya'll know this is a figure of speech, eh? Nevertheless, the consequences are about the same, I'd say. The end of the road is the inescapable deep black hole.)

So... this is what this past is all about. Conceding to the wrong, hoping to make it right. Arrgh! Tell me. Was that idiotic or what?