Afterthoughts

there's been a lot going through my mind lately. little things. big things. important things. petty things. but what stands out the most is the way i am reacting to (or denying) those thoughts.

oftentimes i ask myself: what is going on?

i feel like the world is getting smaller and smaller. there is no room for me to move around, nor is there room for me to grow. whatever direction i set myself to follow, there are roadblocks that just stand in my way. it's like a maze.

and here in this maze i find all the questions. i want to know but there is no way for me to know. i want to believe but it's hard to believe. actions speak louder than words. why are there limitations? why are there restrictions? if it is true that birds can fly, then why won't they fly? why won't they soar the vast space and find out where their wings will take them. i want to believe. i really do. but i can't.

laugh at me. i don't really know what i'm saying. i'm just blogging -- if you can call this blogging. it's almost like scribbles -- just a little fancier.. but there really is nothing to it.