Fork It?

If you have the ability, for one brief moment, to step into my shoes.. would you?

Before you dwell upon your response, allow me first to identify ME. ME as in "I" -- am my own personal character. I am like you, yet I am different from you.

You are happy. Content.
I am laxed. Longing. Despairing at being the only lone soul on earth. I yearn to be with somebody, yet I hesitate to relate in fear of being committed.

Let me clarify that. I do not fear the commitment. I fear the "failure" to keep the commitment intact. Intact as in willing to face the hurdles and strains of a relationship.

Uhm. I wonder Why? .. How did I turn out to be a "giver-up" (ah is that a term, for real?) Toss me a term. Hurry!

Hey. Don't get me wrong. I do want to relate. In fact, I long to relate. BUT... I am afraid. (Simple. Basic.) Losing the grip is something I cannot tolerate any more than I have tolerated my many past failures.

IS "giving up" the answer? Hell no. I just need to think. I need space. I need to breathe. YET... I do not have time. I need to live. Now.

... Let the saga begin. FORK IT! hahaha.